When You Least Expect It

Life is crazy.  Sometimes, I just think about the ridiculously crazy series of events that needed to happen exactly as they have in order to land me in the position that I'm in right now.  There have been countless moments that, with only slight modifications, would've completely changed the course of events in my life. 

There are days when I get really frustrated because I want things to be a certain way, and/or because I want to have answers and/or because I feel very confused about what I'm supposed to be doing and/or a multitude of other things.  But, the reality is this: I'm happy.  I'm enjoying life as it is today, and so I ought to be grateful for all of the things that have gotten me here.

I'm happy to be married to a man as wonderful as Joe, and to have a son who amazes me daily.  I'm happy to have a family that loves me, despite knowing that I'm as crazy as they come.  I'm happy to have friendships that continue to change and grow and be strengthened.  Some of the people who I count as very good friends have only been in my life for a few short months, and I only know them because I made about 100 decisions that landed me working at Starbucks for the third time. 

I know that life isn't perfect, and sometimes I wish I could walk down a different path (the PhD thing being the dream I most wish I could've followed) but, in the end, I wouldn't trade this.  Maybe the PhD will happen.  Maybe I'll finally get that book written.  Or, maybe I won't.  But, for today, I am happy and blessed and loved and strengthened and content in ways that only this life--my life--can allow.